Wednesday, October 6, 2010

My Decision

I simply can not say another word without expressing my complete and utter awe of EVERY SINGLE ONE of your incredible comments on my last post. 

Blown away doesn't even begin to describe how I felt after reading them all.  

After spending days in complete distress over this haunting decision and feeling 100% torn, with every encouraging and supportive word from each of you, it put a little piece back and made coming to a decision so much less terrifying. 

So, after MUCH thought, tears, and with the support of so many, I have decided to pull out of the 1/2 marathon this Saturday.  I will still race, but have chose the 5K because this is all my body is able to perform at this time with my injury. 

I spent the night receiving countless pieces of wonderful advice from everyone's comments, but I knew in the end, I was really the only one who could make this decision.  When I woke up this morning, I was still split and I prayed that I would come to some peaceful conclusion with this all.  Well, that peaceful conclusion came when I spoke to my best friend Jen (who is running the race with me this weekend).  We have been planning to do this for almost a year, but both of us have had quite a rough year with injuries, surgeries and just life in general.  She told me she read my post last night and said that she was feeling the same.  We both didn't want to let each other down, but knew in our hearts that we were not in the condition to do this race.  So we decided together…..

We are going to go to Connecticut this weekend, have an amazing time with our husbands and each other, and have a BLAST running the 5k race together! 

And that is my final answer. 

To be honest, I think both of our husbands are relived.  When I talked to Toly about it tonight, he looked me straight in the eye and said, "Why would you ever risk your love of running by hurting yourself?" Ha, he makes it seem so simple but he is always 100% right. 

I also realized that if I am going to pursue my fitness career and help others live an active, healthy life, it's entirely hypocritical of me to expect someone to be physically sound when I can't even live by my own words.  The first rule of fitness is SAFETY (we learned that this past weekend) and I would not be a good trainer if I didn't follow this. 

Okay, I'm done now.  I just needed to get this all out and truthfully, I feel so relieved about this all. 

But again, thank you.  All of you mean so much to me! 

Alright, since I spent the past 10 min rambling, let's just do a quick and dirty of the good stuff…..

My Day of Eats (No Words Required) 




That's all! 

I'm off to go CELEBRATE THE MOST AMAZING WIN by our boys the Phillies!!!! Halladay threw a NO HITTER in the first game of the Play Offs.  Truly unbelievable. 


  1. You should know this already, but I 100% support your decision. Take good care and we need to catch up soon xoxoxoxo

    Now go celebrate!! :)

  2. SO happy for you :) Glad you made your decision- I know its the right one. What an amazing looking dinner. The open faced sandwich is awesome and I bought and cooked some brussels tonight too! Deliciousness. Enjoy the rest of your week and good luck at the 5K!

  3. I'm glad that you made your decision and must admit that I'm relieved to see you are honoring your health and safety. After 3 months in a boot, coping with an injury, I would hate to see anyone else have to go through something that prohibits them from a hobby they love so much. Enjoy your race weekend!!

  4. congrats on your decision. and yay phillies! abe just walked julius wearing his jacket and julius had on his special phillies leash.

  5. you are AWESOME. that was a very selfless and bold thing to do!

  6. That is a very wise and mature decision. GO GIRL!

  7. I breathed a huge sigh of relief when I read you decided to just run the 5K - I don't want you hurting yourself! I'm glad you're at peace with your decision. Isn't it funny how the husband always makes things seem so "simple"? My husband is always amazed at how complex my thought process is and how I weigh each and every option. He chooses one and is done!

  8. So I was so happy to read this. I fully support your decision...I know it was hard, but I think you listened to your body, which is the most important thing you can do. I'm very proud of you...and I know I'm not the only one.

  9. i am so, SO proud of you. i know the decision wasnt easy, but you wont let it ruin your weekend!!

  10. i think the healthiest thing you could do is listen to your body during this's imperative! you want to still be able to be active and healthy later, so taking care of yourself now is so important :)

  11. I just found your blog and let me just say I can totally identify with you. I've been dealing with a knee injury for six years--seriously. If there was one thing I could go back and tell my younger self, it'd be this: "Don't be an idiot. Rest now, walk later."

    I pushed myself too much and now I have terrible cartilage damage that makes walking and standing, let alone running, so painful. I'm so glad you decided to do what's best for your recovery. Future you will thank you!

  12. lauren my dear, i am so glad you decided to pare down to the 5k. it's so hard, but i always remind myself that 2 hours of racing is not worth potentially 2 months of rehab/not running if you were to injure yourself. i think you made a wise decision friend, and you are going to have a fabulous weekend!

    in other news, i am constantly inspired by your unique flavor combinations. what is on that dinner sandwich? whatever it is, i need it in my life! love you!!!!

  13. glad you made a good decision for yourself and have an awesome husband to support you. we all support you, too!

  14. Good decision on the race! I'm proud of you for making that toughie!

    Also - last year when my Cardinals acquired Holliday, I THOUGHT we got Halliday initially. Would have been awesome for games like last night...!

  15. I just read your comment on my pain post, and then popped over here and read your decision. I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!! I can only imagine how difficult this decision was for you, but it really sounds to me like you're doing what's best for you and your body. You are going to have a BLAST. :)